Thursday, February 04, 2010

505. Beginning of a New Poem / Song... Finding All These Metaphors for My Buried Freudian Anorexic Past....

The last week I have been doing some Freudian [deep] mental scrubbing, coming to realize that I am re-connecting my shoved-back past, connecting dots in new ways... continuing the Anorexic Academic theme here from Blog 229... Santa Barbara Writer's Conference.... I'm not sure whether to call this song/poem "Ghost" because I already have another Ghost poem dealing with broader issues in space and time. I am remembering how this one memoirist (some dude who likes to write about his gay life and his dog in New York, of course) said one sage piece of advice for sure... "As you keep living the present, your relationship with the past constantly changes, shifts." I am endlessly a shifting baseline syndrome. *Sigh.*

underneath these frothe layers,
false prestige of academics,
lays a wild vicious creature,
desperate and anorexic.

underneath these stable layers
of an hourglass dynamic,
lurks the darkness of a belljar [chaos]
caving in to a walking stick.

oh, somehow, second chance in mind
gave new shell to a decayed life--

ghost.
as a ghost.
oooh.oooh.oooh.

[exist as]
as a ghost,
could not let go
of her demons ago,
could not escape,
northern lights
to create
another day
in her way-
coming her way,
so she haunts
like a ghost,
haunting
her very world,
universe of
her self,
like a ghost,
second chance
as a ghost,
second life
second chance,
as a ghost,
living ghost...
creating a ghost...
haunting a ghost...
like a ghost--

is her ailment
mental or enviro-
mental, interactive
both.
oooh.oooh.oooh, both.
oooh.oooh.oooh, both.

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

504. Poem / Song Just Made Up in the Car "Contingency: Stokastika"

I had always envisioned to make some kind of epic funky geek song... and maybe this is it. For the last month, I have been consciously desiring to write some simple poem entitled "Contingency," and while I was driving to Ventura this evening, some melodies happened to go along with the words! And the evolution of this ditty kept me awake on the drive, though I was extremely exhausted. Lucky me sometimes music can pour out like that. I'll write out the lyrics, and head back to work. This Monday is my First Academic Judgment Day, and I really feel like I am facing some form of Philosophical Death or Suicide of sorts. Won't write anymore here... I may get "depressed".... (I have an early "primordial" poem entitled "Stokastika" I may eventually include here, largely defining the properties of space and time, but then again... it's very simple, overly simple, early-early-early-single-celled-organism-simple kind of poem... though it ends with the question... "What will you do when you're in the flow?")

Contingency:
Stokastika


An' so they say
Great dis-coveries
Occur sim-ply
By Cha-a-a-ance.

But this strange game
Of chance seems to
Favor those few
Prepared Mi-i-i-inds.

Oh dear lady,
It was merely
By chance you had a
Prepared Mi-i-i-ind.

Oh,
Don't (Do) tell me--
Ima con-tingency.
A proba-bility,
Undis-orderly
Retrospect-ive-ly
A blank slate-before me
An' somewhere-inside me
An' somehow-outside me
Lays a dis-covery
A great dis-covery
Lays a dis-covery
A great dis-covery--

Stoka-stika.
AStoka-stika.
Stoka-stika.
AStoka-stika.
[Background
Chants]
now... now... now... now
... now... now... now... now...

Thursday, January 21, 2010

503. Poem / Song "Absurdity" Just Invented in the Car!

Absurdity

Will you play this game with me? (aye-aye-aye-aya)
I'm trying to save humanity. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
I've given up: it's-ah mockery! (aye-aye-aye-aya)
There's nothing much out worth saving, (aye-aye-aye-aya)
Except my own sanity. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
Sparing my own sanity. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
What a noble, sacred deed. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
Quite a noble, sacred deed. (aye-aye-aye-aya)

Well, why don't we go on watching-- (aye-aye-aye-aya)
This global tragic movie (aye-aye-aye-aya)
I think it's called "Absurdity." (aye-aye-aye-aya)
I guess you can, count on me (aye-aye-aye-aya)
On showing up for this viewing. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
At least we won't be lone-ly (aye-aye-aye-aya)
Watching this show unfolding, (aye-aye-aye-aya)
You-oh-you and me. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
You-oh you and me. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
You-oh you and me. (aye-aye-aye-aya)
You-oh you and me. (aye-aye-aye-aya)


I have a hunch that I might be expanding this song. There's lots of potential, and the theme is very timely: how I and several other people have come to this naive, ephemeral burden of saving the world when they get to college, and then one day they wake up, grow up and start first pursuing the task of saving themselves before they get into grander, convoluted thought processes.

This song is fresh out of my head, like fresh eggs right out of the chicken. I went to the grocery store and on the way back, the song poured out *bam* like that! No struggle! Now I have to get over the complex of sharing my raw voice and melody in some attached mp3 here. I first have to learn logic studio pro. Big hurdle to jump over!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

502. Useful Philosophical-Scientific Thought Experiments That Cannot be Tested, Replicated, or Proven

Man, oh man! I'm on a roll. This is another list I have been wanting to make for a VERY long time.... This is just the start....
Philosophical-Scientific Thought Experiments That Cannot be Tested, Replicated, or Proven


(1). If Darwin had one wish from God, he would want Replicate Earths (would be very useful in the Sustainability Experiment!).

Please visit Blog 492 for more images!

(2). I can only know what life is, given that I know what life cannot be. Designing your own organisms and see if they can live (Jurassic Parkish, kind of). I had envisioned a montage of Terra and Buz falling into the phylogenetic tree of all of life, and they themselves morphed into all different types of creatures in order to test whether they could survive and replicate... or not. (Still yet to be done!).

(3). Planetary Systems reconstructions. I heard there is an astronomy modeler at Cal State Northridge who actually tries to reconstruct planetary systems to see whether they are physically and chemically feasible to exist in reality. How fun! (Kind of like Einstein, who theorized relativity, and then was observed retroactively, crazy!)

(4). Post-cataclysmic ecosystem and city-civilization (trophic) reconstructions. Hiroshima or Hurricane Katrina experiments are not considered ethical... though at the time, the situation beckoned such an experiment. This type of ecological reconstruction is explored in Mike Davis' Chapter 16, "Natural History of Dead Cities" (in Dead Cities, the book)... though I would argue to entitle the chapter "Natural History Reconstructions" since it was all about imagining how would the world look like after man destroyed it. This concept is also explored in a more recent book, "The World Without Us," (and illustrated book "After Man"!) which I thought was wretched writing... for example... the author kept referring to a world after human beings as "some Garden of Eden," blah blah blah. As Seth the graduate student said on a geology field trip to Nevada, "The bad news is the world is going to hxll. The good news is that the world will be a much better place afterwards."

(5). Designer Ecosystems. What kind of pastoral environment do you want to create out of Santa Cruz and the Channel Islands? What kind of Japanese garden do you want to make out of the ocean, the California Coastline?

(6). Thought Experiments on the Male Species.... been there, done that... to be indulged in another human being for a long time without even being in close physical contact... View This Blog.

More ideas to come!

I suppose this Blog Post is a continuation of
Blog 497, which details a growing list of very unethical, but very real series of experiments that are currently underway, or have already happened. Building on Blog posts with conversations/courses with Dr. Mike Davis (Blog 482, Blog 475, Blog 466).

501. Whacky Gibberish Poem Entitled "The Co-Evolution of Collective Action"

PDF for Poem "Co-Evolution of Collective Action" can be found here:
http://sites.google.com/site/stokastika2/coevolutionofcollectiveaction.pdf

Epic Tattoo of the Phoenix on the back of my great friend, Lauri Green. The Phoenix is a most appropriate metaphor in terms of exploring the simultaneous feedbacks between constructionism and deconstructionism in the above poem. Candidate for Vispo!

Epic Tattoo of the Phoenix on the back of my great friend, Lauri Green. The Phoenix is a most appropriate metaphor in terms of exploring the simultaneous feedbacks between constructionism and deconstructionism in the above poem. Candidate for Vispo!


Sunday night I was going on this philosophical stream of consciousness and "heading toward the right direction of my powerpoint presentation," and Monday morning, I woke up realizing that my day was going to be chopped up, and I wanted to give myself something to do in Barry's creative writing class (giving myself something--some fiddling project--to do ultimately keeps me more attentive in class for some reason), so I brought these two poems I had concocted, as inspired by readings from Mike Davis, Chapters 15 and 16 of "Dead Cities." Chapter 15 explored the notion of nonlinear contingencies in the history of life on earth, synthesizing some literatures in planetary geology (whoever's responsible for studying asteroids), ecology-evolutionary biology, and some social science sources. I was elated that Davis synthesized the often philosophically disconnected fields of geology and evolutionary biology (very much disconnected in mentalities I had experienced when ploughing through the coursework) in a way that I synthesized the fields, but through independent labors. I would write the chapter with slight differences, and also some additions, but overall I was a very happy, very inspired reader. Chapter 16 entailed "science and imagination," how certain scientists and naturalists envisioned post-disaster cities in "imaginative ecological reconstructions." (And on that note, I wrote Blog 502 on "thought experiments" that can't exactly be tested or replicated, adding to the trail of "Mike Davis" Blogs 482, 475, and 466).So, last quarter, these two chapters were superb, extremely inspirational readings I had spent quite a bit of time with. I was quite intellectually aroused, my entire "oak tree" or "coral reef" inside my head was shaking around, getting stimulated.... So, at one point, I was zooming up to Riverside to attend a Mike Davis-and-Bub-field trip (which was quite a bit of fun!) and I had one-point-five hours in the car to think about whatever the hxll I wanted, and that is the time I devised these two poems.... The Intergalactic Tide of Hyperassociations, featuring my Greek Mother, and The Co-Evolution of Collective Action, which is seen here.

The idea for the poem actually came much, much earlier. At the end of March 2009, I finished
CHESS and I'm still trying to find poems to include in the second edition (besides having intentions to illustrate and visualize the set of poems). April of 2009 I went to the Origins Conference and was exposed to the Medea Hypothesis of evolution, in which life itself mass accumulates certain properties and sets up its own "unnatural disaster," or collective suicide, much like humans. In other words, you need to have a mass accumulation in order to create a mass extinction. Medea is "kind of" in opposition of this whole Gaia (pansy-xss) mentality, and what is interesting here is that both theories imply some form of "super-organismic" evolution beyond genes, individual organisms, species.... And then my clever little brain... as I just had taken "environmental institutions" course with Oran Young, I started to think instead of associating these very cool phenomena with "superorganismic bullshxt," that we should borrow the term "collective action" from political science and call these Gaia/Medea/Shiva effects (Shiva is a metaphor that Mike Davis uses and represents as some form of destructive element imposed on a system, like a meteor impact). So, it's not just evolution by natural selection, it's evolution by collective action, but in order to publish such a beautiful idea, I first have to create some bullshxt math model from fake data and then the great idea becomes science. My xss. So, I publish in my blog... and maybe make a film, eh? Or, a nice little poem here. Theorizing with poetry, eh? I also further noticed that there are two modes of thinking in evolution, construction and deconstruction, and they go hand-in-hand, you need both in a dynamic dance, and so my ultimate metaphor for all of this constructive deconstructionism, deconstructive constructionisms is... THE PHOENIX (which is an ultimate tatoo of my friend Lauri)! American interpretations of Darwinian evolution is largely competitive and deconstructivist, whereas Russian and Eastern European interpretations are more constructivist. And of course, somehow capitalism and socialism gets factored into cultural interpretations of Darwinian theories... Bah! (So, all my past references to this past paragraph are in Blog 475 Untended Cemeteries, Blog 425, life-death cycles, Blog 424, Gaia-Medea, Blog 380, Poem, Principles of Scientific and Ecological Inertia).

As you can see, the construction of this poem has a LOT of recent historical baggage, recent evolution, intricate internal neural wiring that lays deep in my head.... So, the issue was... why did I procrastinate in writing this poem last quarter? This quarter is Anti-Procrastination Quarter, just to let you know, it's about Just Do It Now without any questions asked. And I'll be danged if I am going to procrastinate again. To think that I was going to be able to write such a complicated poem, Co-evolution of Collective Action, in a distracting classroom environment? HA! Ya right. Well, I always think I will get a project done in a jiffy, and I end up being a slow poke... oh well.

I was quite amused when I was scribbling chicken scratch on the car on the way to Mike Davis' field trip. I told a very nice Asian student in class that I wrote that poem and she was amused. We exchanged emails, and I am dufous because I did not follow up. *Sigh.* I dont' know where the email is at the moment....

So FINALLY, after a two month lag time, I hammer out this poem, and I take a step back... it's engrossed with alliteration. I am sure Shelly Lowenkopf would say "gibberish." Same for Barry. It would probably drive him crazy in a good way. So, maybe if I email Barry and say, "if you respond to this poem as 'whacky gibberish,' then I think I may have done my job." Because I think it's as far as the poem is going to go in other people's heads.... Besides all this profound underlying meaning... Barry felt the same with my "Whatever's Left of the Wild West" poem. Oh well... and so it goes.

Ooo... blog 501 is a toughy. "01" makes me feel like I'm starting from scrap. The more and more I am blogging, the more I am coming to realize there are "narrative threads" (or more so "vertical stacking" over "horizontal spreading" of mental coral reef growth) in the blogs I write. Blog 52 connects to Blog 101 and the string of Blogs 455-461. Emergent themes, emergent storylines, I suppose? And the other trend I noticed, is the more that I write, the more I am associating. Creativity is a [scary] expansive feedback effect... and my own "recording/writing" head has a hard time keeping up with my right brain and prefrontal cortex. Definitely some internal neurological conflict of rates of processing... *Sigh!*

Sunday, January 10, 2010

497. The Growing List of Unethical, Yet Very Real Human-Social-Environmental Experiments

"Human flesh: the most untapped resource on Planet Earth, in more ways than one." (Dr. Sam Sweet, paraphrased)

Transforming Human-Environmental Issues into a series of unethical (yet sometimes very valide) scientific experiments... he he he... someone's gotta be a mad scientist, eh?! I'm sure there's more than enough of those... disguised as politicians....

TEMPERATURE-CLIMATE
>> The Global Climate Change Experiment: How will the world change if we change the climate? Can humans survive a Snowball Earth or a Cretaceous Hot House?

>> The Hurricane Katrina Experiment: What happens when you have over thirty years of accumulated city corruption and infrastructural fragility + hundreds-thousands (?) of years of sedimentary erosion, landscape sinking + an inevitability of a hurricane predicted to ultimately occur 10-20 years in advance?

OXYGEN-GASES
>> The Gas Chamber Experiments: What will happen when you deprive humans of oxygen and expose them to gases that are not processable to the body? (World War II concentration camps, of course)

WATER-FLUIDS
>> The California Water Distribution Crisis Experiment: What will happen when southern California sucks most water from northern California and the Colorado River without paying even a dime, and there is ultimately not enough supply to meet the demand? The explosion is waiting to erupt.

>> The Arizona Cactus Garden Experiment in Southern California: What if all of southern California re-landscaped itself into desert cactus gardens as opposed to unnecessary water-sucking lawns filled with non-native, non-Mediterranean-climate plants? Then we would have money to restore the stability of the University of California system? And tuition wouldn't have to be thousands of dollars!!!

FOOD-DRUG
>> The Megacorporate Food Preservative Mummification (Taphonomic) Experiment: How can we best preserve human bodies through stuffing mass-produced food-like substances with preservatives?

>> The American Obesity Experiment: What happens when you place each human in a technological womb (television, office-space-cubicle, computer) and then feed them food like substances stuffed with sugar, white flour, and fat?

>> The International Fishing Experiment: How much do we need to fish in order to run out of the major staple fish food sources (occurring at the international scale, e.g.s whaling, fishing in Japan)

>> The Anorexia Experiment: What happens when you don't eat? (Been there, done that. Don't recommend trying this at home).

>> The Psychiatric Pill Popping Experiment: What happens when you solve all your problems with some pills (legalized drugs)? Turning out to be another method collective pacification, opiatism of the masses. And so the world stays... as it....

>> The Smoking Experiment: How does smoking impact human health? (I think we're a bit over this experiment, but it was still going strong in the 1950s-1960s)

>>Medical Commercialization Experiment: What happens when you allow television ads to encourage people to tell doctors what pills they should take? (drives up cost of pills and medicine) What happens when you allow television advertisements to convince their viewers/audience members that they are "sick"?

DISEASE
>> The Antibiotic Experiment: How much does society need to be antibioticked until the point of which we facilitate the construction, evolution of a deadly, non-resistant strain of bacteria? (ticking time bomb experiment, any day now...)

BIOLOGICAL
>> The Reproduction Experiment: What happens to Planet Earth when humans have found a way to reproduce like rabbits, well-fed bacteria, yet... most of the rabbits actually SURVIVE and pass on genes to the next generation?

>> The Human Biological Invasion of North America Experiment: What happens when you convolute a few generations of "European misfits" with the illusory notion of "Manifest Destiny" through the pursuits of colonization of the "Wild West"? (The space fills, dxmmit!) What happens when you introduce native Americans to un-human populated landscape (12,000 years ago) riddled with megafauna? (Pleistoceine Overkill Hypothesis, Paul Martin)

TECHNOLOGICAL
>> The Cell Phone Experiment: Will humans in America be alive after thirty years of chronic cell phone use? Will we all have brain tumors?

>> The iRobot Experiment: When will all technologies merge into every human's iRobot? Will humans 10 years from now have any ability to retain information long-term since this society, with the prevalence of internet-etcetera, has become merely Information Retrievers? When will humans have completely lost the ability to have long-term memory storage? When will humans start to implant iRobot chips into fetal human minds, giving birth to the fully direct, integrated biotechnological evolution? (Biotechnological evolution is already happening in terms of the co-evolution of ecosystems and technology--cows-chickens-agriculture--and the co-evolution of the human body-the immune system-and medicine, the "arms race" so to speak) (chips will dictate the human's conscience rather than their own? To what degree of control the human has of his or her own individuality and individual decision-making anymore? To what degree of brain control?) (Technology reduces people's capacity to think--1984, Animal Farm, government or large organizations tells everybody how to think, George Orwell, corporate-private-capital-fancy-machines-economic-private-competition-economic-competition-more-dichotomy-between-intelligence-stupidity) (What if the first ten years, children are allowed to develop consciousness, but at age 12 or so, they are implanted the chip because consciousness is largely developed and the rest is about accessing-cramming-informational bs in your brain....)

SOCIAL-PSYCHOLOGICAL
>> The Human Torture-Shock Experiments: What will happen to the human mind when you you torture him or her for long enough (depravation of resources, stimulation, etcetera)? (see The Shock Doctrine)

>> The War Experiment: What are the psychological impacts of war? (World War II, Vietnam veterans, now the whole Iraq-Afganistan scene)

>> The Capitalism Experiment: What happens when a nation/political state becomes defined strictly based on currency/economics, in which all human behavior is assigned and valued according to the dollar bill? (Mothers and environmental problems aren't then well incorporated) Evaluate everbody on the basis of financial wealth rather than any other forms of values?

>> The Socialism Experiment: What if everyone were valued with true equality, even though everyone is unique and has different performance and contribution fo society?

ENERGY
>> The Global Fossil Fuel Experiment: What is the bottom of the well? How long will it take to run out?

LANDSCAPES-ENVIRONMENT
>> (Human Built-Environment) The 9-11 Experiment: How is human health impacted post 9-11 incident? In the immediate, and long term?

>> The War Experiment: How is human and landscape health impacted by war? (Europe, uranium, lead poisoning?)

>> The Ocean Oil Spill Experiment: How badly does an oil spill impact the environment (Dr. Jeremy Jackson, Panama, mitigation money research... uh-huh)

>> The Smokey-the-Bear Fuel Accumulation Experiment: How much chaparral and pine forest fuel do we need to build up past the 50-year cycle in order to construct a non-containable wildfire during Santa Ana wind weather?

>> The Pastoral Japanese Garden / Designer Ecosystem Experiment: What kind of an utopia-esque terrestrial or marine Japanese Garden are you trying to create? With what values? What baseline? Ecological engineering-sculpting / niche constructionism.

>> The "Hug Nature to Death" Wildland-Disneyland "Living Museum" Experiment: How much will you hug and save nature to a point in which you kill it? (Excessive Preservationism, isn't also like Protestantism in the beginning of America? The concept of saving every single human life, excessive pro-Life so to speak in which we keep vegetables plugged into machines with our tax-payer dollars?) e.g. situation with southern California wildland fire; most people perceive nature and outdoors as an "untamed Disneyland" ecotourist adventure without knowing the details and nuances of the landscape, a utopia-esque pastoral view, the game of adaptation and manipulation, over-manicur-ing landscapes... tree-huggers, shrub-huggers (my dad's neck of the woods), fish-huggers (some MLPA folks), cactus huggers....

This list sparked from a simple response from my fisherman friend residing in LA Harbor. I have been wanting to make this list for sooo long, and NOW is the time! I called my father, and he ended up helping me extend the list.... Another half-hour phone conversation indeed! I can definitely perceive this topic to be a syndicated newspaper column.

KEY WORDS: ecologically unethical, unethical human experiments, human flesh, mad scientist, cactus garden experiment, cell phone, iRobot, information retrieval, designer ecosystem, japanese garden, Disney satire, hug nature to death, manicuring, protestant

496. A Very Old Poem? Prose Poem? Flash Fiction? Revived Entitled "The Dent" ::: Initial Meditations on Earned Versus Acquired Wealth-Inheritance


PDF for "The Dent" unclassifiable piece (poem? prose poem? flash fiction? meditation?) can be found here: http://sites.google.com/site/stokastika2/thedentpoem2.pdf.

As I had been deeply "scrubbing my brain" when looking through and sorting images, several little "untidy" and "unfinished" ideas kept popping into my head. These little subliminalities that never seem to go away, even though it has been... what now... over four years since their initial occurrence?!

For example, this little poem / prose poem / piece of flash fiction / meditation... whatever!... entitled "The Dent," which documented a very awkward transaction between myself and another graduate student, once friend, now probably, just "profesional colleagues," during a geology field trip in northern California during the summer of 2005, which philosophically shook me all up to the nth degree.... I had a glimpse into the lives and worlds of fairly wealthy people who lived near by Stanford, and through my observations, and the painful "dent" experience above, I came to realize, that in my entire life, I will never ever desire to own anything or any object that is beyond its functional, practical worth. Because there is a lot of baggage that comes along with this additional illusory worth, baggage that is completely unnecessary and clutters up people's lives.

That summer was the time I began meditating on the properties of wealth--how "wealth" or the ownership of quality/quantity materials impacts individual psychology and perception of the world... and more often times than not, in very bizarre, skewed ways.... And I also started to understand the differences of psychology of individuals who (1) earn wealth through brain power and hard work, and (2) acquire wealth through familial inheritance. The value of money quickly, psychologically strays from a dollar equating to hard labor to a dollar equating to falling from the sky, with some kin baggage, terms and conditions.

When I was ten years old, I could say I went through this phase of "filling out forms and entry cards to win stuff," like vacations and cars and the like. Well, what else do you do when you're force to hang out at shopping malls for hours? My parents advised me to stop filling out the forms, and instilled the notion, "If you work hard, you will earn your rewards." I started living this philosophy all throughout high school... and even today, and sadly, I came to realize that much of the real world does not operate based on this philosophy... though it may be ideal in a fundamental level.... Though one day, I do believe that... I will earn a reward... for all this hard work in "environmental media." One day... I already have received small rewards.... I just have to continue my own little Myth of Sisyphus, Part 2.

Inheritance of wealth--money and resources--is not the only form of inheritance. For example, my participation in the university also involves "social inheritance," or the inheritance of contacts. What do they call it? Social capital? (how barbaric, inhumane! treating humans as an actual good and service). I grew up playing in the grassy fields by the geology building at UC Riverside. I was surrounded by professors who would pat my head when I was only three feet tall. I realize that this upbringing has given me an advantage in terms of instilling a "comfort level," a form of "homing behavior," at the university. The continual presence of my father and his research most likely has allowed me to persevere through three different graduate schools. Though my father has tremendously impacted my own road to life in terms of where I am at now, I still am very conscious of developing relationships with other academics through my own personal work and personal merit, rather than through the lens, frame of reference of my father. For example, when I entered the College of Creative Studies, I never told my advisor, Armand, that my father was an Earth Science professor. I wanted Armand and the faculty committee to judge me based on my own merit, rather than based on "oh, your father's a professor, therefore...." So... I've been walking a fine line in the university, and thankfully at UC Santa Barbara, I have largely carved my own "environmental media" niche and developed my own unique stance without people affiliating me as "Rich Minnich's kid."

I am coming to realize how I am opening some massive cans of worms on the ideas of WEALTH and INHERITANCE. Even touching upon the notions of LAMARCKIAN INHERITANCE and DARWINIAN INHERITANCE (thanks to modern research in genetics, I have come to realize that I can blame my parents a lot more for my physique and actions that I could otherwise :-). Below is a short paragraph examining the potential definitions of the word "Wealth," and why I am choosing not to use such a word since there are so many aspects to constructing wealth (getting into issues of The Peacock and the Bowerbird).


Why I Don't Use the Words "Wealth" and "Poverty" Using the words "wealth" and "poverty" can be overly vague and very deceiving. There are several dimensions to "wealth" just as there are several dimensions to the term "diversity." Four primary forms of wealth are "financial wealth," "physical wealth," "emotional/spiritual wealth," and "intellectual wealth." America may have the most "financial wealth" and potentially the most "physical wealth" in terms of access to resources and services, and overall ownership of coinage, but in terms of "spiritual/emotional wealth," the country sums up as a giant, empty black hole of self-destruction and depression. (Too many resources::: too difficult to maintain::: hire other people to do your grunt work::: disconnect from the "zen" of labor and the process of creating, maintaining resources) In other words, America may have the most GDP in the numbers, but we are far from having the highest GNH, or gross national happiness. Several peoples in Africa may not have the best access to resources or any currency at all, but they can be very soulful people, with a tremendous sense of community and hope (what about that arrogant one-laptop-per-child program?). In another sense, "physical wealth" can be contrasted with "intellectual wealth." A scraggly geologist may live in a small house with few resources to live off of, but he/she has a sense of mastery and ownership in the understanding the evolution of life on earth much greater than the suit-and-tie man or powder-puffed woman with a huge house and five cars. This acquisition of intellectual wealth can also fill holes of emotional depravity. And lastly, a human stranded on an island with a treasure chest of a million dollars and not a drop of water or morsel of food can still not survive, though he is "financially wealthy." In the film, Up the Yangtze, the main character ironically stated her family was the "poorest" of the region, but they were raising and self subsisting on the best line of crops along the Yangtze River. (Same situation with my grandfather's involvement of "bartering" during the Depression). Access, ownership, subsistence, and bartering of tangible, physical resources without being incorporated into a currency system is not necessarily included in economic analyses (these means of surviving are probably not included all together). So, whenever I see anyone using the words "rich" or "poor" countries, even "first world" and "third world" countries, I become quickly disgusted, coming to realize that the author has not really thought through what they were saying. Sources include the Economist and a slough of social commentary authors. (The Poem "More," The Peacock and the Bowerbird) (You also have to consider the properties of acquiring wealth: earned versus inherited. Issues of Darwinian versus Lamarckian inheritance)

It's strange to think that one tiny incident with a dent in a car four years back can dislodge a massive boulder in my mind and lead to a whole chain reaction of thoughts on the subject. Now very deep deep deep in my mind, I remember this BMW-graduate-student owner mentioned how she and her family learned "not to become attached to materials" when their house burned down over 15 years ago... a philosophy entirely contradicting her reactionary response to the dent in her car. Come on! I need some consistency here. But then again, who is consistent nowadays? Who says what they mean? Mean what they say? Say what they do? Do what they say? Even myself. Human. Default hypocrite, eh? Ya....

Inheritance of social regimes, social contacts explored in Professor's Daughter Syndrome Blog 336.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

494. Photography from World's Easiest Catch ::: The Zen of the Grocery Store ::: The Values of Food


Continuing from

Blog 145, BLURB INCLUDED WITH PHOTOGRAPH COLLECTION: The Zen of the Grocery Store (World's Easiest Catch Images, Processed in Time Lag). As I had been processing images, I stumbled across an image set during my frantic videography spree in the Lazy Acres market in quasi-downtown Santa Barbara. I had waited two weeks to receive a go-ahead from the store manager in order to take some footage. It was the first time I ever took pictures in a grocery store, though I seem to go there every single day. I suppose my main epiphany was (1) when I usually enter the grocery store, I am so preoccupied with a to-do list that I completely disregard the (2) sheer QUANTITY of food in an entire store, the FACTORY essence of the store... but placed in this aesthetic ambiance "store front," that you come to forget that you yourself are a part of the machine operation. To me, with a rock crab film or not, these images are timely in the evolution of thinking in my own life, so they are worth showcasing with or without a larger-scaled film. Some of these images can couple the poem / song "Where Stuff Comes From, Where Stuff Goes."

And speaking of which, an old demon comes to mind. I had wanted to make a to-do list, or The Ultimate List of the Values of Food. The first time this thought came up was derived from a conversation between Bahareh, Barry Spacks, and me, over lunch in spring of 2009. Very relaxing occasion, actually. And Bahareh made this excellent "performance poem" meditating on a tea leaf, in which the leaf, and the process of preparing the leaf in the morning was a very solemn sacred process compared to the chaos and rush of the rest of the day, which includes junk information, junk food (well, what's the difference). I told Bahareh that I have a very systematic point of view with food. My relationship with food varies with space and time, and content of my stomach along with the content of the food. So, the most important thing is to have conscious recognition of my relationship with food at the time in order to prevent any form of negative activities to occur (rushed eating, binging-purging, excessive eating of junk food). Then the idea reoccurred to me in Mike Davis' course on writing and landscapes. Ultimately I would like this poem to be VISPO a systematic list on the values of food. Values are not always mutually exclusive; some overlap and intertwine.

The Values of Food
and the Intricate Coupling of Physical and Mental Consumption, Metabolism, and Excretion.
A Meal for Thought.

Why I eat food. A question every "anorexic" will eventually have to grapple with.


>> Medieval Torture. Being gluttonous at the buffet every Saturday afternoon. Your mother forces you to gargle raw garlic and let it sit in your throat for ten minutes. "The pain is there because it's killing all the bacteria!" (age 10, starting off on the wrong foot, hence the beginning of a very severed, sour relationship with food)

>> Survival-Replication. If you don't eat (for a month), you die. If you do eat, then you can survive, grow, and replicate on to the next generation. [reptilian, preservation, reproduction] (age 17, first-hand experience)

>> Origins-Evolution. Your body and mind evolved to eat so your body can stay in one piece to grow and reproduce... and die at a later date, but your progeny continue on [existential] (age 19, Sam Sweet's evolution course)

>> Hunting and Gathering. Food tastes good if you earn it. You went through the labor of catching your own prey instead of mosing into a grocery store and purchasing some human catc chow (I started becoming a fisher girl in February of 2009, age 27, though I went duck hunting once at age 26)

>> Environment-Ecology. You are the summation of elements of your environment. Your body and mind is a unique aggregation and assemblage of elements derived from your environment and you need to continue replenishing the assemblage with more new elements to stay as one large chemical sack [existential] (age 19, Miriam Polne-Fuller's Shoreline Preservation course)

>> Hunger. Your more basal "primitive" part of your mind contains a subliminal neurophysiological "sensor" that beckons the state of "hunger," if your mind is actually operating normally (my sensor shut off and did not experience hunger, until around age 22, my appetite came back)

>> Medicinal-Digestive-Medical. Drinking tea for your cold. Drinking coffee after a rough meal at the Hometown Buffet (my parents still do it!). Making home-made chicken noodle soup to deal with your throat infection. Drinking Gatorade for lost electrolytes after a throw-up incident (age 22)

>> Mind Alteration. Stimulation. Depression. Though I'm more drunk when I'm not drunk, I am a pretty altered state simply being normal, or on coffee. I become boring, open, and vulnerable when I'm on beer, but my thoughts slow down with weed. Recreational drugs were never of interest because starvation provided the highest of highs. Starvation + lack of sleep + lack of exercise + computer in your own room = 5days-1week intellectual trance, enlightenment, altered state of reality. Starvation also places my body in a "fighting, hungry lion-tiger syndrome, so my body and mind wants to keep chugging and performing for over 10-12 hours of the day) (starting age 19)

>> The Sleeping Pill. Using food to slow down your conscious mind and transform your body into a more visceral, mind-numbing state in the evening. Konks out the brain for sleeping (starting age 19)

>> Exercise Prevention, But I Don't Want to Sit on My Xss in Front of the Computer Syndrome. Eating a splendid morning breakfast, like strawberry waffles at Mimi's cafe on a Saturday morning will prevent you from being able to sit down and do any work for the rest of the day. Lazy activity. (starting age 24)

>> Study-o-holicism. Particular low calorie, high caffeine food that allows one to consume all day like insulin IV drip, and clench your jaw (like with bubble gum), allowing long-term "intellectual trance." Three-meals-a-day-syndrome does not exist! Coffee, soda, bubble gum, wrthers original, and the like. (starting age 18)

>> Safetys and Comforts. Eating foods that are familiar and similar to your known universe of taste buds when placed in a foreign environment, like another country, or even your neighbor's house. (starting age 18)

>> Rewards. Pavlov's Dog. Rewarding yourself with a sweet item to symbolize that you made it through the day... for example yesterday, I had a hot chocolate at Starbucks! (starting age 22)

>> Subconscious Stress Diversion, Divulsion, Amplification. Stress and fast-paced lifestyles can construct a sloppy mentality with all habits. Binging on an entire half gallon of ice scream late in the night is a great likelihood (which was my entire year at UCLA age 22-23).

>> Social Gatherings. Food foraging and consumption as a common endeavor; an opportunity to catch up with family and friends during this window of time, especially during the holidays! (The first time I could sit down and have a meal with friends at a restaurant was around age 21)

>> Diversity. Since most of American prepared food has become "one giant cafeteria of dormfood" to my tastebuds, I have come to appreciate home-made cooking, and the meals of local restaurants, bakeries.

>> An Art Form. Cuisine. The pleasure of extra time devoted to preparation. The subtleties of flavors, tastes, aromas, and the aesthetic of preparation and presentation.

>> An Exact Science. Ecologists tend to be those who like to study their food a bit too much before they eat their meals. Hence, very bad table manners, a laboratory of poking around as an intermediate stage (age 22)

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

493. Alas! A Roadtrip Nation Interview with Ms. Sara Miller McCune

Shannon and I had anticipated in interviewing Ms. Sara Miller McCune... the book and magazine publisher, the entrepreneur, and now philanthropist... for quite a while... since October? But the cards of life fell as they did, and the interview finally was conducted... today! It was well worth the wait. In essence, we had an extensive interview with Sara, but we also had two short interviews with Todd Capps, who is the director of the Holden Foundation, and Michael Todd, the on-line editor of Miller-McCune Magazine, who is frequently a guest speaker to university functions in concern of communicating technical issues to society. I had met and spoken with Michael about 3-4 times before... and when the time is right (and my advisors won't kill me for it)... I hope to intern with the magazine....

Shannon and I have been very persistent about holding a filmed interview with Sara simply because she is one of those individuals who sees clear links with science and society, knowledge and change. The motto of the Miller-McCune Magazine is "turning research into solutions," which seemed completely common sense to her, but apparently is not a mainstream mode of thinking or mentality in journalism. One random man off the street heard the motto from our mouthes and he proclaimed, "Turning research into solutions?!! Ain't that what research is for in the first place?!! DUH!" Ya, well tell a scientist that... Hmmm.... When we asked Sara "Why do you think scientists perceive 'advocacy' to be a cuss word?" Her response was very logistical. In short, the way how science works is through peer-review. All you are trying to do is talk amongst and impress your colleagues in order to achieve credibility. After a while, scientists rack up a "track of credibility" which comes with the baggage of potentially multi-million-dollar laboratory set-ups... just a snowball earth of INERTIAL CREDIBILITY amongst academia, and for you to step out of character and start seeking dialogue to a broader public and express concerns about societal-environmental change pertaining to your research, then all this track record of credibility can be destroyed, slowly or rapidly.... Breaking your inertial credibility is not an option for academic survival... which is ultimately a form of financial survival as well.... And Sara said in similar words, well hey, since scientists aren't in the best possible positions to voice their thoughts, we as Miller-McCune Magazine can work right along side them and be the voice for them to facilitate the translation of research into solutions, whether policy change, grassroots change, or whatever change that needs to incur based on the new knowledge we have acquired. Then again, though the magazine also serves as a safe haven, a venue that allows scientists to express their views on human-environmental change. Scientists are actually frequent contributors to the magazine.

So, this is a very practical, matter-of-fact response I find as valid, but I also find it saddening that people are not allowed to say things simply because of preserving this inertial track record, this inertial accumulation of a certain reputation.... As if lack of freedom of speech is inherently embedded within this human system. *Sigh!*

As a run-down overview, Shannon and I showed up to the headquarters of Miller-McCune Magazine in downtown Santa Barbara around 2:30 pm. We were both somewhat distraught because Shannon's boyfriend Ben is struggling with a severe medical drama, trying to survive a staff infection that has implanted itself in his heart. Gosh, how horrible! All the best to Ben! Our thoughts are with you! But we managed to show up just in time... 2:56 pm, struggling to get inside 804 Anacapa. Apparently the building has historical significance... a little bit of adobe in there somewhere or other... and a changeover of interesting parties, all the way from restaurants to churches.... I was actually a bit thrown off by the layout of the building. First off, there were NO SIGNS anywhere stating that this place was "Miller McCune Magazine." It reminded me of this super-multi-million-dollar-space-ship-like-music-studio I ventured into off of Haley Street (Santa Barbara Sound Design). You could never tell that studio was there from the street; it looked like a plain white-drabby building from the outside! I always perceived journalism headquarters to be some giant big hub with people in crammed cubicles, and layers upon layers upon layers of clutter.... There was a since of common space among everyone. This building was much more spaced out. Everyone had substantial space to themselves, and potentially even their own rooms! There wasn't much clutter up on the walls. Honestly, I think the level of space is superb because I know myself that I do need a lot of space and time to be an effective writer....

Finally, Shannon and I were able to venture into the building, though it was a bit tricky, and we were greeted by Todd Capps, and then Sara soon after. We sat down and "warmed up," familiarized ourselves with each other, and Todd explained how the Holden Foundation was seeking to have more "cohesive efforts" in social-economic-environmental sustainability rather than all this piecemeal patchwork that is currently going on in the non-profit scene... or in general, which includes a redundancy in programs. The first problem is that several non-profits focus on one specialized subject without realizing the interdependent nature of the problem... like environmental groups not accounting for the social factors in environmental problems... or social groups not calibrating their issues of concern to the broader environmental context. The second problem is that several organizations are REDUNDANT in their efforts. I had come to this fundamental epiphany as an undergraduate about 7-8 years ago. I tried to make an "Environmental Resource Guide" toward the end of my undergraduate UCSB experience, and I was just simply frustrated to make a list of campus environmental organizations be simply redundant in their overarching mission statements. It turned out that each organization had slightly different (1) visions (2) methods of achieving those visions (3) issues (4) in different regions (5) composition of individuals. I learned that these redundant organizations reflected more so a byproduct of the properties of human behavior. Humans aggregate in small friendly groups by region / issue of concern, and when an organization reaches a certain scale, then a level of impersonal interaction occurs, and more strict bureaucratic regulations would have to be imposed to maintain the organization in one coherent piece, and dear lordy, who wants to make more bureaucracy in the world... we have enough already....

The Holden Foundation seems to have a great mission in terms of synthesizing the patchwork, but before organizations can actually start having that type of mentality, I think we as a human species need to first start synthesizing the patchwork of our own minds.... Otherwise I don't see much of anything getting anywhere any time soon.... But hey, someone is out in the right direction... We'll see where it all may end up! I'm always open to new experiments! Nevertheless Todd was very open and welcoming to me and Shannon, and it will be interesting to see how the Foundation unfolds.

After the meeting with Todd Capps, Shannon and Sara sat around a wooden table in Sara's office, right behind a very colorful painting. They were very close to a brick wall, so I'm not exactly sure how that will pan out as backdrop footage; it may be slightly cluttering.... It's good to have distance between the subject and the backdrop.... Ohsy wellsy, it's all on the fly anyway.... I did set up a light stand to have a bit more brightness, contrast.... Shannon and I filtered out some main questions we wanted to ask Sara, and overall the interview went very well. Sara was conscious of her speaking softly, and it is actually very helpful for her to state that--I adjusted my camera's volume accordingly.

We ended up talking for about an hour's worth of tape, but I bet about 1.5 hours total. There were lots of jewels and gems that she stated, sometimes very blatantly, and sometimes very subtle. An example of subtlety was when she discussed how life throws so much at you, and you have to learn how to filter and prioritize. In a metaphor she whistefully stated, "You can't pick every single leaf that falls on the ground," and I thought that was a very clever way to make her point. The two blatant, screaming messages came in a quote and a metaphor. The quote: "Money is a renewable resource. Time is not," which I remember was stated by her son. The metaphor: "Life is an open book, not just for reading, but for experiencing, and for writing." This quote was paraphrased a bit, and Sara left the metaphor open-ended for us to interpret for ourselves.

Overall, Shannon and I listened to a fascinating suite of stories about how Sara came to founding Sage Publications, co-founding the McCune Foundation, and setting up the Miller-McCune Magazine. We even had some discussions about Sara's involvement in sustainable development projects in other countries, some through the the collaboration? with Dr. Jeffrey Sachs of Columbia University (I don't know how or why, but so many arrows have pointed me to the direction of Jeffrey Sachs, time and time again... hopefully it's not just me). Sara even referred us to one of Dr. Sach's programs on sustainable development. I suppose the academic publishing profession started when Sara just graduated from college, as an undergrad, and back in the day, there was still the expectation for women to be housewives, but she had a hunch she wouldn't be one of those. She applied for a few jobs in publishing, and was hired by MacMillan, Inc. (?) Since then, she fell in love with the profession of publishing. Sara specifically mentioned that she did not go to graduate school, though she did consider it, but she was always continuously learning on the job through her authors, and the publishing process itself. It seemed like everything fell into place afterwards. It was surprising to hear from Sara that "educational publishing" has not been so severely hit as other newspapers and other publishing houses in this "changing media climate," and that Sage Publications / Miller-McCune Magazine has of course established an on-line presence to coincide with print media. We also had a splendid series of digressions and personal anecdotes, which were a pleasure to listen to. As a "strict journalist," I probably would have "cut her off" because journalists are to get to the meat right away... but I honestly feel that this mentality is just a bit too inhumane at times, and I wanted the ambiance to be as friendly, conversational as much as possible. Digression is a property of human nature. Let one subject stream into the next even though there are a few curves in the road, or you didn't take the shortest route from point A to point B. There are a lot more gems in the videotape; I can't wait to crack into it, and find more golden soundbites!

It was unfortunate that Sara had to leave a bit in a rush. We didn't have enough time to get a couple of photographs, nor have her participate in our little "art project" of "name," "profession" "quote of the day" written out in our sketch book.... But it all worked out overall. Sara will send me the art project in the mail.

Our grand finale was a comical tour of the Miller-McCune Magazine by thee one-and-only Michael Todd, who somehow establishes his own humorous credibility through jokes of continuous self-deprecation. And honestly, he is VERY good... it works very well.... I will officially call this jokester methodology the SELF-DEPRECATING GLORIFICATION; I should try it myself! I wish Hollywood stand-up comedians would do this more frequently; their methods are SELF-OVER-GLORIFICATION. I can see why Michael does a lot of guest-speaking to several universities and other public lectures... he's just so fast and witty and spontaneous... making humor out of everything that everyone else could simply see as ordinary... even boring. It turns out that Michael has taken an interest in wildland fire management issues, as he has done an article in the past relating fire's contribution to climate change. He happened to (embarrassingly) stumble upon my father's quote, "Trees are bombs" in our little Roadtrip Nation quote book, and I stammered, "Oh, that's just my dad. He's a fire ecologist." And then a little chain of questions followed up to a point in which... oh that would be a great idea for my father to do an article on Miller-McCune Magazine addressing alternative policies/management regimes to deal with wildland fire! Oh cool, cool! My father has had so much boiling up in him, I think doing an article like this would really allow him to vent. I also told Michael that my father's been hammered by other media sources, but their interviews have been largely "shallow," in which they come bug you the day of the fire and forget the next day that you exist. He completely understood, and I said that would probably mean much for my father to have such an opportunity.... So, I have to hook 'em up, hopefully my dad can meet Michael directly!

Shannon and I left the meeting in good spirits, a bit frazzled in a wonderful way... our minds trying to process what exactly happened, but our thoughts soon returned to the other sad realities of Ben and the onslought of other school obligations. I knew I couldn't focus unless I recapped and did a blog.... So here I am. MENTAL DIGESTION!