Sunday, September 23, 2007

"Zen of Rock Crab: Parts to Whole" / The Black Box Series

I took this image of myself using the self-timer on my Nikon D80. This image string was ultimately used in my Zen of Rock Crab film. You never know what can possibly be useful until the end. You can't tell, but I am very sleepy and tired and stressed in this image, though I posed "enlightened." I just came back to UCSB and had an opportunity to meet Hannah's friend Charlie, who is a crab and lobster fisherman. [I was very stressed because I didn't have roommates, or housemates to calibrate my lifestyle to. I become easily overworked and lacking in sleep. I am very thankful now for three graduate student housemates, though I have my own room. Amen!] Anyhoo. I was filming the temporarily unused lobster and crab traps that were laying in the back of Charlie's rented home amidst the avocado groves of Fairview. When Charlies left, and after my filming of major components of the 17-shot series. I saw this black tar box where Charlie actually dips his traps. And you know what I saw? Figuratively (science-wise) and literally: A BLACK BOX. *Duh* Fine fine fine. But honestly, you don't see a lot of black boxes hanging around. So, my being an opportunist of an old-stale idea, I started taking pictures of myself in this black box, inevitably of my MockHollywood Self-Portfolio and Zed Card (to get back at IMTA). So, such is the story of this picture. I can look good at a distance, even on three hours of sleep. It took a lot of shooting to get this image though. I am difficult to photograph. And since I know this, I just shoot myself. I am not optimally mathematically aesthetic at all angles, but I have a certain small proportion of angles (less than 20%) where I can tolerate looking at myself, and say that I'm not an aesthetic ogre to society. Say for example, I bet Natalie Portman has close to 100% aesthetic mathematical optimality. You can take mistake pictures of her, and she STILL looks good. For me, either I look good, or just really BAD. So I worked very hard during my leave of absence to find my spatial regions of optimal mathematical aesthetics. *sigh* And this picture is the byproducts of my learnings. Blue Horizons made all the things I learned in pained isolation, all these things... actually count. Blue Horizons made my entire leave of absence an extremely useful experience.

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